Writing and Trying New Things
Hello strangers - friends, endless void of the internet. Yeah, I’ve decided to see if I can stomach writing a blog and keeping up with it, as if we need any other voices screaming into the internet.
Really, this is just a self indulgent way from me to share my work and my thoughts in a way that other social media platforms don’t work for me. Also my memory sucks, and having things down on paper (with pictures) helps my wormy brain slip away just a bit slower.
Anyhow, I’ve been working on finding new hobbies. Nothing crazy so far, just simple things like; reading, collaging, and as of today…blogging. Trying to find new outlets that don’t cost me a ton of money to get into. I have this overwhelming feeling that I’m not doing enough (all the time). It’s funny to think, because in reality, I know that I have a ton of skills but I’m not sure if I am especially skilled at any one of them - a real Jack-of-All-Trades, Master of None situation.
How do I grow as an artist if I don’t have a trade to focus on? Do I even like anything enough to spend all my time doing it? Maybe.
I am however grateful to have been drawn to the one career that really benefits from my weird series of unimportant skills. As a Production Designer for film, being a jack of all trades has served me so far in my career - being able to design and put together sets in a mess of construction, prop fabrication, color coordination, stunts, special effects, you name it. I guess production design is the skill I’ve come to master most, yet it still feels personally stagnant at times, because mostly I’m making stuff for other people. How do I focus in on me?
I’ve tried therapy four times in my life. Surely a therapist that I like will come along someday. Until then, I’ll just keep cutting up paper and gluing it to things.
I think my goals moving forward for this blog, this website, and just me in general are to be more intentional with making things and putting them out in the world. I want to create my own structure and voice into the things I make and making a habit of sharing them. More importantly, I want to be able to share my creative processes in a way that keeps me in a healthy relationship with the internet and social media. I’ve had a little taste of internet recognition, and although infatuating at the time, I found the in between moments of “internet fame” felt like emotional whiplash and it’s been a journey trying to detox from the addiction of social media.
We’ll see how it goes, yeah?
Thanks for tuning in.